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*taggies replies*

gosh*

i cant even remember when was the last time i did my tag replies in an entry!
curses to Cbox for jamming up yesty, making me unable to check my tags, n thus, this floods.
with that. im replying them here! heh. here goes..

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[*NigeL]
i always do haf a point! hah! n yeahs. i'll rmb. thz ey. u TC too! =)

[queen]
hee. tt'll suffice. glad u still bother to even visit. cheers aights. =)

[aye]
u're a conoe in the river rite.? i doubt dere's any icebergs dere lah.! hah. n ey. for once, ur advice is sensible.! nyaah!

[As aStranger]
ignorant, i am not. negative outcome, i dun see. sacrifice is redundant, i think. but ouwh wells. hu am i to say.? kids shud nv be allowed to make their own decisions, ey.? but arent the ones making those decisions, as good as an authority.? im lost, its so ironic. hmms.

[alacritwee]
i shud stick to being the indecisive me. at least i wun hate myself too much for making wrong decisions. nyaah. n yeahs, i hope so. thz aights sya! *lotsa luv! hee* =)

[deUinYRimnotjoking]
apart frm floorball, the list is endless. i just choose not to rant over every single one of them. im puzzled. wad was i even worthy of in the first place? heh. and hey. i've not lost hope, yet. i still do pray for happy days to come. and it will, i haf faith. =)
ps: 'you' is a common term used in english[the medium im using now] which exist in multiple form when translated to malay. NOT just confined to ENGKAU. but if ure really offended, then i shall nxt time specially put it as kamu/anda when im referring to anda. in conclusion, remove tt thought. heh.

THE END. hee. =)
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now! yall understand y i cant reply these at my tagboard.? nyaah.

well niways. just a quick update. yesty was almost fun, except for the crappy morning blues, afternoon blues, and evening blues. well, u get the pic. nyaah!

today was definitely fun! got stuck wif dee thruout the day, yays! just wad i needed. hee! =))

though my eyes were only half-open during all bio, math n econs lectures! but nooo, i persevered! hee! got almost everything in, i guess. but i was still yawning away! boo. ahaha.

n sheesh. i feel so unfit! onli ran 3rounds for fb thingy, plus 2rounds during PE today.! dee got her 8rounds! boo.! hah. n compared to yesty's TEN rounds we did for FB's fitness test, today is nothing.! nyahahaa.

but i feel good! nyaaaaah! tired of cos, but good! yeahs.! more oxygen is nourishing my brain cells now! i might just be smarter at the end of this term.! ahaha.! fat hopes.

*alwaysss look on, the brighttt side of life!
nanah. nana nana nanah!
eheh.*

*weets!*

aights. today. another normal day in sch.

other den d fact tt we had fund-raising. nothing else is special.
ouwhs! thz aye for the flowerrr. how sweeeeet of youuu! hee!
n yeahs! thz dee and yuni for accompanying me! though eventually i dint get the one tt yall recommended, ur comments were of much help! hee!
with that..

Happy 18th Birthday Abg KhiDir! i luvvv youuu. mwahahaa. x)

n yeahs. not forgetting. hapi frenship day to yall innovians! hapi wadeve-else-yall-call-it day to all my darling frens. hearts always ey. <3

*frens tolerant skills are down to zero.
im making enemies out of dem, one by one.
wad the hell is wrong wif me. or is it YOU.?*



*wondering if i made the rite choice. innova..
other den floorball tat kept me going,
and frens that supposedly wud always be dere.
wads gonna drive me when i lose both.?*

*no matter how much i hate making choices.
its even more disheartening to not have one.
and rite now. you're not giving me any, are you.?
i've never love any CCA as much as this before.
u make me hate myself.*

*with that. i take back my words.
i'll do wad pleases you. for i am not defiant.
but this pms wud take more den 1month to end.
give me the whole 2 years of my JC life.?
im not joking. im serious. heh.*

*NO.*

you always get me wrong.

stop making it hard for me.

i give up pleasing others.

or you as a matter of fact.

im doing wad pleases me now.

*decisions.*

went to my aunt today.

celebrated my lil nephew's bday. so yeahs. =)

another relative of mine sat for O's too. apparently, he seems to be having much more trouble about his JAE application. results, relatives inteferance, parents hostility, yada yada.

and i realize. im very lucky. whatever it is tat im experiencing now, is as good as it can get. results tat'll suffice. ignorant close relatives. and support from my parents. thank god.

with that. i shant be bothered by all ur choices. apparently, the advice i got frm my form tchear last yr is true to a certain extent. friends are like passing ships. and they are, undeniably true.

its just sad that the pple i least thought wud be those ships, are in fact, those ships. with that, im thankful that i have my beloved family, whom i noe for sure, wud never ever be ships! hee. goodbye my friend.

in conclusion. im definitely putting INNOVA JC as my 1st choice. yjc, nyjc, mjc wud also be in my choices. but i shall pray that i wun be posted to any of those. cos i've decided that people there are ships.

dear friends,
thank you for making my 4years journey in aiss a wonderful one. friends come, and they go. yet, life has to go on ey.? they say that memories will fade, but i promise i wun let that happen. for memories are all that's left eventually. i'll cherish every moments that we spent together.
even if u're just another passing ship, i'm glad that fate did make u pass by mine. =)

*i believe that the phrase
"Friends Forever!"..
is a big fat lie..*

*lima belas. hmm.*

i dint noe how to write. so yeahs.
decided to go details, since getting O's results is a once in a lifetime experience.

i still feel jittery sey. god noes why~

cant sleep tat nite. talked wif dearest dad till abt 2.30am. heh. was consoling, n guilty-feeling.

woke up at abt 9+. felt normal. normal. normal. was suppose to cry myself to sleep, but it dint happen. boo. so yes. as predicted. was sooo nervous later on. hmphs.

took abt an hour or so to get ready. god noes wads on my mind. alot of questions. dad came in shortly. was reassuring.

left at 12+ to meet up wif dee, maria, aye at BK. before i left, dad said..
"Only cry if you do better den wad u expect. otherwise, let me do the crying.."

i dint noe how to react. so i walked out, not letting dem see my expression. cos tears were already welling up, cos i feel reallll guilty. hmphs.

ate n chats at BK. wud have otherwise been a super fun trip, if i werent feeling all emotional. gerl, u reali disappoint me. im sori that i cant be of any support for u on this. for i violently object. tried to shut up thruout. but dee somehow asked wads wrong. n so, i cant help it. i hate myself.

tried to kill time by walking around NP. time was moving soooo blardy slowly. den coincidentally met up wif fadh n tikah. decided to board 800, cos its a longer route. coincidentally too, farah n sya boarded the same bus. was so hapi to see sya! =)

still, we were earli. so went to toilet. toilet gang. =) sya told me tat im supposed to visit the GO. so i did. yada yadaaa. all settled. went up to hall. was rite on time! =))

*shivers* im all paranoid. wait. anxiously. dint noe wad to expect. dint have any expectations, i just dint want 21, or fail my eng. saw others smiling, some crying. i was moreee anxious. n i wasnt prepared on how to console others. so once again, shut up.

dennn. my turn! urgh. i almost cried even before seeing the results! but she smiled. and Mdm Jo came over. she said. "you did well. i saw ur chem results. you did well.." tat was reassuring.

got the slip and all. first thing, check my grades! *pls no failures* a C, strings of Bs and As.! All Smiles! and yes. tears flow. =))

wasnt exactly happy. but relieved. very very relieved, i can still dwell in a JC! hee!

rushed over to dee. wanted her to be the first to noe my results, somehow. ahah. stripped open the JAE slip. dee pointed to the L1R5 n shouted. "FIFTEEN!!!" hee. wasnt woahs! but oraits. syukur alhamdulillah. =)))

we were both hapi initially. relieved we both got under 20. but soon after. we realized some grades that was disappointing. so yes. she cried. n i joined, again. hmphs.

had pics taken soon after. i noe, i noe, my eyes were puffy. ahah. but ouwh wells! i managed a HUGE SMILE! hee. =)))

i was sooo happi to see MYRA! gods noes why. happi. happi. happi.! hee!

went home straight after. home.? heh. i guess it wasnt gd enuf lah. dey dint look tat delighted or wad. just, oraits. ouwhs wells! hmms.

plus, my abg dint get his <20pts. so yeahs. i cant be tat hapi at all. cos i'd feel bad for him.

nonetheless! they made a huge fuss over his eng results being better than mine. god* i wonder how tat cud possibly be true! watever lahhh. haiz.

n now. its all done. over. finally.

aights. it's 2.59am now! better get into bed! hee. mornings pple! =)

*blank.*

*zips*

dun ask. i dun wanna talk about it.

well. at least not now.

cos i dunno how i feel about all these.

and its just purely unfair. unfair, i tell you.

i cant feel good. but i dun feel bad. just cos u cant make it. hmms.

*so near, yet so far.*

hola peeps!

pardon me for the hiatus. simply cant find the time to update. hah. =) so rewind!

Tuesday!
hee. my parents' anniversary.! bought a cake.! was obviously a huge surprise for dem, since this is the 1st yr tat we actually rmbed, n dey forgot! HAH! seriously. was All Smiles. =)) god, i luv them, totally!

ouh yes, credits to irah and dee for accompanying me to NP and CWP, again. hah.

Wednesday!
the most touching floorball training ever! games were absolutely fun. plus tiring of cos! hee. coach and darling J2s hi-fived us. well-wishes for our O's n all. i've never felt tt much team spirit ever! All Smiles. =))

journey home got me thinking of where im heading next. i hate aye for being determined to leave IJC. i hate myself for being so indecisive. i hate yjc for being so near my house, making me this doubtful of ijc. hmphs.

ps: we already did sign up for OGLs. for fun n laughter. HAH.

and we celebrated the Feb Babies Bday during break. was erms. fun. =)

Thursday!
omg. dee is the bestest darling, ever! she waited 4hrs for my lessons to end! onli cos she noes i'd be gg home alone otherwise, cos yuni n naz aint in sch today. somehow, she got me slightly more determined to stay in IJC. =D

plus! Mrs VP's speech was ever inspiring. it takes alot of character... which, i dunno how much i've got.

P.E. was AWESOME. class spirit was at it's peak, somehow. and CG0611Daredevils have officially found a rival. hee! jk. had mass games in the hall, since was raining. so CGs vs CGs.

i expected much better sportsmanship frm TT class, since yuni kept mentioning how FUN those pple are. UNFORTUNATELY. they dun work well under pressure. and we, CG0611D is here to give yall pressure. =))

no no. dun get me wrong. dey're fun. in fact, i luv naz's CG.! very sporty.! n very, easily stressed-out. hah! thought dey'd kick out butts off farrr. but ouwh wells, was a great 3-2 loss.! despite all the elbow-ing i got frm him. bleargh. Go Reds!! mwahahaa.

FOR ONCE. my mind was off from the results. boo. TMR! *shivers* aights. it'll come sooner or later wad. so lets get it over and done with! i cant wait. to cryyy! been on a reali fun emotional rollercoaster this week. wad a perfect day to sum it all up! woo! x)

best wishes to all you O's taker. whatever happens, remember. All SmiLes!! =))

*n when u're down low..
just wanna run away..
trust urself, n dun give up..
u noe u, better den anyone else...*

*in a moment, everything can change..
feel the wind on ur shoulder..
for a minute, all the world can wait..
let go of yesterday...*

*an achievement! HAH!*

news are out. FINALLY!

its reali about time. rumours of so many diff dates have been spreading around eversince last wk. dat im getting a headache of not knowing when to anticipate wad. either way. FYI.

10 FEB 2006! FRIDAY! 2.30PM! AISS! hee. =))

yesty's family outing was yet another super fun trip. hee! wonder how far we walked. but gosh! i luv the sea breeze! woo! =))

PE today was yet another pain in the ass. but woots! i managed to run my 8 rounds without stopping, and under the allocated time! hee. thz to that super nice tcher! =)

CWP trip wif dee & irah after sch was interesting too. though wasnt fruitful, meaning i hafta make another trip tmr, but ouwh wells! had fun! hee.

OMG. my functions test aint cancelled since dere's sch on WEDs! hmphs. im dead meat. TOTALLY burnt dead meat. im elle-oh-as-tee.. LOST!

ouh yes! im literally burnt! u noe, as in, DARKly tanned.?? credits to the 8rounds we did in the scorching sun during Floorball training! BooHoo.! Olay, anyone.?? hmphs.!

OUH! ouh! im tinking of applying for that OGL thingy! nyahaha. thing is, im not sure if im staying in IJC! hmms.

aights. chem tutorials and fundraising report [you noe, that cupcake craps and all. hmphs.] awaits me. so i shall be off now. thank you pple! hee.

*i dun mind anything less den nineteen.
but i'll cry till my eyes cant open, for anything more than twenty.*

*for anything less than nine.
i'm yours wholeheartedly, till eternity,*

*the number thirteen sounds nice though..*

*im still a female.*

nyahahaa!

ask yuni wad's wif the tittle! ouh wait. no fun. this is exciting! so i want to tell! HAH! =DD

just like any other thursdays in ijc, my good-frens abandoned me. but its okay, im luving my CG now. HAH.

so yes. went home wif yuni & naz! hee! naz left halfway, so was left wif yuni, hu somehow, have alot to talk about! to the extend of us not realizing that..

we were walking rite into the GENTs at Woodlands MRT station during peak period. get the picture.?? nyahaa! this guy was *ehems-ehems-ing behind us n i was thinking, wad the hell.?? till i realize, we've almost outraged the modesty of those guys in the toilet. aHAH!

so yes. yuni was blardy paisey, cos some guys were laughing at us. and yes! she made us walk sooo farrr to escape the eyes of those hu witnessed the hilarious incident. HAH!

apart from that. nothing else happened that wud be of any particular interest to yall. but yeahs! Ms PE said that our girls frisbee team was the best that she's seen by far. HAH! wad a total esteem booster! =DD

Bio Test.??? UH! good question. but reali, shudnt have asked! nyahaha.

n yes! about the cupcakes. ouwh gosh* i've heard enuff of it lah! come on!!! nyahahaa! im reali sori lah. im afraid, i might just be a disappointment to you 11Dolphins. HAH! x)

floorball tmr. woots! Eh you Kalsa people! come sponsor us lah! we want Fila overalls.! and 50k to spend for the team! nyahahaa. come on floorballers! work hard, and be commited! HAH!
you're either wif us, or u're not. hockey is NoT fb. so make up ur mind oredy! =))

*you're already,
the voice inside my headdd.*

*two words.*

FLOORBALL RULZ!

gooo ai! ahmad, PRESSURE! 100 pascal!! mwahaha. that's for today. pure FUN. =)

im reconsidering. wad are my options.? hmphs. indecisive idiot lah you. shoo! x)

*because of you,
i learned to play on the safe side,
so i dun get hurt...*